Multiple Choice
I got another BFN this morning, at somewhere between 4:30 and 5:00 am, because having to pee woke me up, and you’d better believe I wasn’t wasting that pee. Let’s play a multiple choice as to why, yet again, there is a negative.
A. I have a defective batch of pee strips.
B. The company intentionally sells defective batches of pee strips, under the evil motivation of more and more profits from women desperately wanting to see that second stripe.
C. I have bad mojo for HPTs, no matter the advertised HCG sensitivity level, or…
D. Upon waking at 8:30 am, I had started my period.
If you guessed D, you’d be right. And, maybe a little bit of C. But definitely D.
So this is how I feel:
A. Pretty good about the evidence of what seem to be good, regular cycles, with as far as I can tell, definite ovulation.
B. Crampy.
C. Relieved to have the correct info.
D. The need to get some supers, not just these wimpy light day tampons.
E. Sluggish.
F. A bit paranoid that now 2 cycles have gone by, and we may be irreparably infertile in our old age of mid-30s.
G. Somewhat freaked that we’re even thinking about this in the first place.
H. A wee bit bummed, and…
I. A wee bit relieved that in about 3 weeks, I’m not about to start my around the clock vigil over the toilet, gagging and yarfing incessantly. And oh,
J. A vague, mostly likely paranoid, sense of maybe this is a sign that we shouldn’t do this. I mean after all, didn’t the other three come immediately? I know, I know, don’t yell at me, remember, I’m hormonal on a period.
SO there you have it. The intimate details of my menstrual life as of the 26th of May, 2006. Oh, freak! It’s my sister’s birthday! Gotto go figure that out…
Please be careful in labeling your two unsuccessful cycles as an indication that you are “infertile”. For those of us that actually have that diagnosis, it is insulting to hear from someone that has achieved pregnancy in the first cycle three times and is having such a “difficult” time conceiving #4. Trust me, two months does not indicate infertility… feel free to use that terminology after you’ve had 60+ unsuccessful cycles like I have, or even the 12 months that medical professionals use to define the condition.
I suggest that you visit www.inciid.org or www.resolve.org for information to dispel some misconceptions you may have about infertility (no pun intended).
Comment by wannabmom214 — May 26, 2006 @ 6:04 pm